Tomorrow is the first day....

of the rest of my life....

I sit here 14 months since i started the graveyard shift at work and consequently stopped working out.  16 months ago I lost a total of 40 pounds in 2 months.. a bit high and a bit fast in retrospect.  I did it by eating few calories and filling up on vegetables.  Fast forward 14 months and I am back to the weight i was when I started and feel slightly ashamed when I look at myself in the mirror.  I kept it off through the summer but when halloween arrived there wasnt a candy I did not eat.  Tomorrow we shall start again.

I know I can do it, having done it once, but the drive is different this time, as in other than a little self loathing, I dont have the same drive I did before.  I went to the gym every morning then and walked on a treadmill for 45 to 60 minutes every morning.  My daughter had preschool there 3 times a week also, so I had motivation atleast 3 days a week to go take her and work out.  I dont have that any more.  I am back on days for the time being at work and I find it hard to re adjust back to waking to an alarm clock.  This time will be more difficult.

I shall prevail..  I saw a picture of a nice lady who transformed herself in 3 years.. I cannot be hasty.. I need to remember that slow and steady wins the race.

Speaking of races I have signed up for a 5k race and the rugged Maniac obstacle run.  Training is a must.  I am also gonna let you in on a little secret.. I kind of, no I want, to become a runner of sorts.. I never ever thought I would say that as I have always hated it but for some reason I am feeling compelled to learn how to run distances.

My goal is to renew an addiction to working out.  I actually love working out, but recently have found no desire as noted above, all excuses imo.  I invested in a nice pair of Brooks running shoes aptly named Addiction.  It's the little things folks.

I will use this blog to keep myself accountable.. my goal is to make daily entries.  keep me in your thoughts.

-Chris